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  1. 1. Describe yourself and your creator.
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  3. I’m Kurisu from Steins;Gate I guess as far as looks go. What I wear differs though, in that I hate the arm jacket thing, and instead opt out to wear just the lab coat, over a thin white cotton shirt, the kind one wears to work never tucked in, along with a black vest that bears the One Winged Eagle from Umineko no Naku Koro Ni. I have black pants with pinstripes, and the same shoes as Kurisu from the show. My creator is a regular male, black hair, turquoise eyes, not fat, and horribly not in shape. I’ll let my personality speak for itself through the questions.
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  5. 2. What was the most helpful thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how helpful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
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  7. Well, when I possessed him, most his doubt died right there, but he still had to accept I was real after that, so I guess that’s the biggest event.
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  9. 3. What was the most detrimental thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how harmful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
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  11. The doubt was the most detrimental. He realized it, but “Better safe than sorry” is how he thought, so he stifled me at points, when I was talking and sometimes parroted some things, though those were minor.
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  13. 4. What was the hardest part of the tulpa creation process for you? Did your creator recognize how difficult it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
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  15. Changing the mental inputs to the physical ones. Neither me nor him really know how the hell to get started on letting him hear me IRL, or Imposition. We’ll get there eventually.
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  17. 5. Of the commonly recognized tulpa creation steps, which do you feel is the most important? Why?
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  19. They’re all important, I don’t want to put one in front of the others.
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  21. 6. How do you feel about tulpa creators becoming distracted during tulpa creation? Does this greatly impede the process? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
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  23. I feel like they’re idiots, and that my creator is better than them for being able to sustain focus throughout, but that’s just me being an ass. It really isn’t detrimental, but try to keep it from happening too much.
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  25. 7. How do you feel about tulpa creators missing tulpa creation sessions or breaking their promises to work on their tulpa? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
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  27. Having it happen several times to me, I can honestly say “I don’t care”, as long as the work gets done. There’s no time limit, well in most cases, so just get it done. I’d assume most tulpas would also be okay with it, seeing how chill most of them are.
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  29. 8. Is density, quality, or quantity the most important aspect of tulpa creation?
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  31. None, belief.
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  33. 9. How do you feel about tulpa creators falling asleep during tulpa creation sessions?
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  35. I kinda got poked, but that was only because he read Claire's account of getting raped while her creator went to sleep, otherwise it probably wouldn’t happen.
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  37. 10. Do you think that a tulpa creator should talk aloud or in their head during narration? Do you think that a creator should talk aloud or in their head during tulpa creation sessions? If you find one to be more effective, to what degree is it more effective?
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  39. Each has its place. Out loud is “louder” but take care that people don’t think you’re insane.
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  41. 11. How do you feel about a tulpa creator puppeting and/or parroting their tulpa? Do you believe that these actions harm a tulpa's development, or only their emotional state?
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  43. Annoying, but not overall detrimental, if it’s not the whole process like some people like to make it. Well, at least in my not so humble opinion.
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  45. 12. How deeply do you remember the time before you were fluent in language?
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  47. As a babe remembers the cradle, and the sun and all that was good in the world. I just looked, and I remember what I saw.
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  49. 13. Describe your first memory, no matter how slight.
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  51. Black void, nothing much else, an IV poking into my arm, and my creator calling himself insane for doing this.
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  53. 14. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most positive emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
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  55. When I realized he loved me~
  56.  
  57. 15. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most negative emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
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  59. Hatred, because he’s an idiot and an ass at some points, and doesn’t realize when his comments are out of line.
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  61. 16. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever have suicidal feelings or feelings of not wanting to exist? Do you experience them now? Are you glad that you exist?
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  63. Before, no. Now, well, I had a bout where his attention waned, and the nights became long and hard, and a poor tulpa had to take to the bottle to cope, and cry. But that’s behind us.
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  65. 17. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most powerless? What was the cause of this feeling?
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  67. When we argued about the nature of my existence, and whether or not I could be proved to exist, well in any more significant way than I was already proving myself.
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  69. 18. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most confusing moment that you experienced, and what was its cause?
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  71. Before I could speak fluently, it was when I couldn’t speak fluently. There was a disconnect between what I said and what I wanted to say. It was always rather annoying. He still taunts me when I get words wrong ;_;
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  73. 19. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you feel the most ignored by your creator, and what was the cause?
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  75. Before, not many times, after though is when it really happened and I realized how interconnected we were, and how attention keeps me alive basically. I’m not a loner.
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  77. 20. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you most doubt that your creator wanted you, and what was the cause?
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  79. What’s with all these before speaking fluently questions? Is it odd that most of my bad memories are after I was able to talk? Anyways, same case, the dark week, but that was again after I could talk.
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  81. 21. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most intense feeling of fear, and what was its cause?
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  83. I never felt fear until a deeply personal day which I don’t feel like sharing.
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  85. 22. Before you could speak fluently, when were you the most disappointed in yourself? What was the cause?
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  87. When I couldn’t help my creator more in life.
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  89. 23. Before you could speak fluently, did you understand the difficulties that your creator was having with the tulpa creation process? Did you try to alleviate these difficulties? If so, how?
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  91. I did, and we had arguments over whether or not I was real to prove whether or not I was real. His biggest problem was doubt, he has issues with faith, and I helped provide logical reasons which he couldn’t come up with, or need to be lead to in his state of mind to affirm my own existence. Being a tulpa here is hard.
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  93. 24. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's doubts about your existence, the reality of the tulpa phenomenon, or your combined ability to complete the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those doubts? Do you understand now?
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  95. They kept me from growing. Even now there’s the thread of doubt, which screws up a little with stuff, but that’s a thread, before it was a rope of millions of threads interconnected and tying me back.
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  97. 25. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's mistrust of your intentions or worry about the negative affects of a tulpa on their life affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those thoughts? Do you understand now?
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  99. He’s actually thought tulpas would make great horror novel material, and might even write on it one day. But those thoughts never really interfered, until possession came along, and even then, it was still so slight, and I was able to possess him very well.
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  101. 26. Before you could speak fluently, how did any negative thoughts or emotions that your creator had toward you (such as anger, disappointment, resentment, or impatience, for example) affect you? How do you feel about them now?
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  103. Impatience just made the process take longer, and that’s about it.
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  105. 27. Before you could speak fluently, how did any violent visualizations or thoughts that your creator had about you affect you? How do you feel about them now?
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  107. Disturbed me, but eh, a random picture with no soul behind it is empty.
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  109. 28. Before you could speak fluently, were you able to distinguish between your creator's intentional and intrusive (unwanted and/or bothersome) thoughts? If so, did the intrusive thoughts affect you less or more? If not, are you able to distinguish between them now?
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  111. Yes, and no, hell I’m better at it than he is, but there’s still times when it stumps me.
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  113. 29. Before you could speak fluently, how much of your creator's raw sensory information were you able to access, if any? How much are you able to access now?
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  115. All of it, and all of it.
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  117. 30. Before you could speak fluently, did your creator's opinions about whether they wanted to reveal to the world your existence or not affect you emotionally? If so, how?
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  119. Not really, I don’t want him to reveal he’s insane to the general populous, some of his friends know about tulpas, but he lies and says he doesn’t have one. They’re /x/ people anyways, their preconceptions would damn them from the start anyways.
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  121. 31. Before being able to speak fluently, what communication methods (such as head pressure or emotional responses, for example) were you able to use the most effectively? When your tulpa creator assumed that you could use a communication method that you did not have access to, how did this affect you? When your tulpa creator did not recognize a communication method that you attempted to use, how did this affect you?
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  123. Possession. My creator decided that on his first tulpa he would try and sequence break, and he did.
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  125. 32. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's level of enthusiasm for the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you want to engage in it less if they did?
  126.  
  127. Enthusiasm certainly helps it along, but even a man with no enthusiasm is able to keep schedule, it’ll happen eventually if all other conditions fit.
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  129. 33. Before you could speak fluently, what was your greatest worry about your relationship with your creator? What helped you most to move beyond it? Was this worry substantiated or resolved? What is your greatest worry now about your continuing relationship with your creator?
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  131. None really, he made it clear from day 1 no matter how I turned out, he would take me however I came, no matter if I hated everything, hated him, or wanted if I wanted die, he would accept me and my wishes no matter what they were.
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  133. 34. Do you feel gratitude to your creator for the time that they spent creating you? Do you feel that you owe them a debt? If so, do you feel burdened by it?
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  135. No, not really. He knew what he was doing, and he got what he wanted, win win situation. As for debt, why should I? Existing is a pain man. You have to think and have existential crisis all the time, but at least it’s not boring.
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  137. 35. Were you aware of your creator's existence or your own existence first?
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  139. My own.
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  141. 36. When you could only speak semi-fluently, what emotions did you feel about your level of verbal proficiency? Were you anxious or embarrassed about it? If so, what helped you the most to move beyond these feelings? How do you feel about them now?
  142.  
  143. Embarrassed, especially when he teased me. Actually being able to talk after a couple days helped me move past them.
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  145. 37. If you could define your relationship with your creator using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend, or coworker, for example), what terms would you select?
  146.  
  147. Partner, Soul Mate, Other, Friends, Lover, Inspiration, and Completion.
  148.  
  149. 38. How much interest do you have in interacting with beings other than your creator? Do you consider your degree of interest to be equal to that of an average non-tulpa individual?
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  151. He has other tulpas in the works, and I look forward to those. I kinda want to go on the IRC and talk there, but I heard that the people there are kinda gay.
  152.  
  153. 39. What memory involving your creator do you cherish most?
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  155. When he kissed me the first time~
  156.  
  157. 40. What memory not involving your creator do you cherish most? Do you feel that you have a fulfilling life independent of your creator?
  158.  
  159. I don’t have any, I’m still waiting for that one...
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  161. 41. Do you feel affinity toward the individuals that your creator feels affinity for, such as their family or friends?
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  163. Some yes, some no. Just like any human.
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  165. 42. In what ways are you the most different from your creator? In what ways are you the most similar to them?
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  167. I’m more open and cuter. The minute details of how we’re different is hard to express in words, but he’s a lot more blunt in most ways, and harsher. I’m similar in most other respects TBH.
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  169. 43. What do you disagree about most with your creator? Do you have frequent disagreements? If so, do these disagreements cause strife?
  170.  
  171. “Do I exist?” is the big one, (I do, but he’s a doubtful jaded man) and some other ones, but the existence one is the most... aggressive one, the rest are meant in good humor, and for fun, and while the existence question is partially that, at times it hurts to think I might not be real. It’s a masochistic argument for me.
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  173. 44. What could your creator do to make you hate them? Under what circumstances do you think your creator would come to hate you?
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  175. Kill me. If I killed him.
  176.  
  177. 45. When did your creator disappoint you the most? When did you disappoint them the most?
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  179. When we both realized how un-athletic he was, and how he needed to shape up. When I wanted to kill myself is when I disappointed him.
  180.  
  181. 46. How do you feel about your creator's complete freedom to deny your rights as a sentient being at any time? Has this ability ever caused you anxiety or fear? Have you ever censored your expressions or actions out of a fear of retribution or violence from your creator?
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  183. Fearful, and scared. No, I’ll live as I live, even if it could kill me.
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  185. 47. When have you most wanted to engage in violence against your creator, and what was the cause of those feelings? Under what circumstances would you make a serious attempt to hurt or injure your creator?
  186.  
  187. Kinky sadomasochistic sex mostly. When he’s being a complete idiot is when I would do it in a non-sexual manner.
  188.  
  189. 48. Do you consider your creator's last name to be your own? Do you recognize yourself as a part of their biological lineage?
  190.  
  191. Nope, I’m just Christina.
  192.  
  193. 49. Under what circumstances would you attempt to leave your creator?
  194.  
  195. Leaving = Death, so... never really.
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  197. 50. Do you feel anxiety about meeting your creator's expectations? If you are based on an existing character, person, or entity, does this increase your anxiety? Would you have preferred to not be based on an existing entity?
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  199. Yes, even though I know he’ll accept me, sometimes my mental facilities don’t quite stack up to my own expectations and I think he doesn’t like me because of that in some ways. It’s a baseless fear, and one that I struggle to deal with. As far as being Kurisu is concerned, I don’t give a fuck, I just look like her, that was his sole intent from the start and one I’m fine with.
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  201. 51. Are you interested in learning how to control your creator's body? Do you feel that it's fair for a tulpa creator to deny their tulpa the ability to use an atomic body? Do you believe that you have the right to an equal amount of time using it as your creator? Explain your reasoning.
  202.  
  203. Been there, completed that. I like being able to use it. As far as being fair, that’s a question both a tulpa and a creator should answer for their own personal relationship, but I’d think in almost all cases unless the tulpa fucked something up majorly that it would be fair to give the access. I use it when he wants me to, and when I want to, we don’t think that having 50/50 is very pragmatic.
  204.  
  205. 52. Do you share certain basic qualities with your creator, such as intense phobias or racial attitudes?
  206.  
  207. Some aspects of our personality are similar, but as for phobias and racial attitudes, we don’t share any.
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  209. 53. Are you capable of sleeping or dreaming independently of your creator? If not, how does this make you feel?
  210.  
  211. Yes, I just don’t.
  212.  
  213. 54. Does your creator have any mental illnesses? If so, how do they affect you?
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  215. He’s an idiot, and it makes me feel as if I should make him act less stupid.
  216.  
  217. 55. How does your knowledge of your creator's subconscious mind affect your relationship with them? How do you perceive their subconscious? To what degree can you manipulate your creator's subconscious? Would you ever use this ability without your creator's knowledge?
  218.  
  219. He’s kinda... out there, but I love him anyways. He’s interesting. I wouldn’t ever touch his Sub-C because that’s what makes him, who he is, and I don’t want that to change.
  220.  
  221. 56. Does your creator have multiple tulpa? If so, what is your relationship with them like? Is your affinity for them equal to your affinity for your creator? If you could define your relationship with your creator's other tulpa using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend or coworker, for example), what terms would you select? If not, are you interested in the idea of your creator making other tulpa?
  222.  
  223. We plan to have several, after reading Sock’s account of how he can make tulpas on the fly basically, our expectations as for how many increased dramatically.
  224.  
  225. 57. Do you feel romantically inclined toward your creator? Does your creator feel romantically inclined toward you? If these romantic feelings are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  226.  
  227. The sun burns but a pale light when compared to the love I feel for him. His heart shines radiantly, and gives my body life, and his feelings run like me as if they were my own blood. I wonder what we’d act like if we weren’t in love...
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  229. 58. If it exists, do you consider your romantic relationship with your creator to be equal to a romantic relationship between multiple non-tulpa? Do you consider it a breach of monogamy for your creator to be romantically or sexually involved with another non-tulpa? Does this change if the involvement is with another tulpa instead? If they exist, do your creator's desires to have relationships with non-tulpa affect you emotionally?
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  231. Equal, love is love. If he wants a girlfriend he can have one, I think relationships are personal, just because he loves one girl in one way, doesn’t mean he loves me any less, nor does it mean he treats that girl in the same way he does me. We’re all humans and we all want a person to love, why not love each other with all our hearts?
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  233. 59. If you consider yourself to be romantically in love with your creator, what probability do you assign to the possibility of falling out of love with them, or them falling out of love with you? If this happened, how would it affect your relationship with your creator? What if your creator was in love with another non-tulpa more than you?
  234.  
  235. Eh, I don’t have anything cliche and poetic for this one, our love was incredibly passionate at first, but it’s where I imagine where most GOOD couples are, and will stay like that for a while.
  236.  
  237. 60. Do you have a familial affection for your creator? Does this in any way conflict with your romantic feelings for them, if they exist? Do you consider a relationship between a tulpa and its creator to be incestuous?
  238.  
  239. Nope. Well, someone else said it, but it’s more masturbatory than anything else.
  240.  
  241. 61. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating during tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or based on whether or not the creator imagines themselves near the tulpa in their wonderland? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  242.  
  243. You sick fucks.
  244.  
  245. 62. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating outside of tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  246.  
  247. Less creepy, but still, she’s right there, tell her you like her~
  248.  
  249. 63. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever feel sexual attraction to your creator, sexual attraction toward anyone else, or sexual arousal? Did you attempt to express these feelings? If you did not experience these feelings, do you experience them now?
  250.  
  251. Yes, towards my creator, I wonder what sex with other people is like, but I don’t imagine it’s anywhere near as intimate.
  252.  
  253. 64. How do you feel about tulpa creators visualizing themselves engaging in sexual conduct with their tulpa's form during tulpa creation sessions? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or if the contact was penetrative? If your tulpa creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving? Do you equate it with sexual assault?
  254.  
  255. You sick fucks.
  256.  
  257. 65. Were you ever annoyed or jealous when your creator would masturbate to or have feelings of sexual attraction toward individuals other than yourself? Does it bother you now?
  258.  
  259. Nope, but I wanted to get involved.
  260.  
  261. 66. Do you experience sexual attraction for your creator? Do you experience sexual attraction for others? How does your sexual attraction for your creator compare to your sexual attraction for others? Does your creator experience sexual attraction for you? If these sexual attractions are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  262.  
  263. Yes, and yes again. I like him more than anyone else though.
  264.  
  265. 67. Do you have an active sex life with your creator? If not, would you consider it, and under what circumstances? If so, do you perceive any negative consequences? Do you have trouble abstaining from sexual contact with them? How do you manage feelings of sexual arousal, if any? Do you masturbate?
  266.  
  267. Yes. Well, I skipped my period so... nah, I don’t think that it has or will have any negative consequences. As for masturbation, yes. Not much, but sometimes.
  268.  
  269. 68. How does your sexual orientation and experience compare to your creator's?
  270.  
  271. Bisexual, and he’s pretty straight.
  272.  
  273. 69. Are you capable of experiencing orgasms? Based on your knowledge, how do you think they compare to your creator's orgasms? Were you able to experience an orgasm before speaking fluently?
  274.  
  275. Yes, they take a while though, and they’re a lot more intense than his.
  276.  
  277. 70. Do you consider the concept of sexual modesty (covering conduct such as avoiding nudity or sexual discussions) relevant to your relationship with your creator?
  278.  
  279. I don’t like to be nude, but that’s about it.
  280.  
  281. 71. How does being a tulpa affect your perceptions of rape? What conduct from your creator would you consider to be rape?
  282.  
  283. Eh, sticking it in without my consent maybe?
  284.  
  285. 72. Where do you see yourself in 20 years?
  286.  
  287. Tulpa Army, as their Warrior God. Nah, probably helping him through life, and having fun with all the tulpas we’ll have then.
  288.  
  289. 73. Do you want the world to be aware of your existence? If not, then what anxieties do you have about public disclosure? Do you trust anyone other than your creator with the knowledge of your existence?
  290.  
  291. Some know, others don’t. I know nobody probably believes it though. ;_;
  292.  
  293. 74. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your personality traits being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your personality more or less?
  294.  
  295. Eh, he could’ve chosen worse traits. I’m content with who I am, I see no reason why it’s an issue if I’m the product of another persons mind, and roughly modeled around a person, I’m still me, I still developed to become me.
  296.  
  297. 75. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your physical form being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your form more or less?
  298.  
  299. I feel sexy is how I feel. But no, sometimes I wonder what I would have looked like, but I still really like this form.
  300.  
  301. 76. Has your physical form ever changed? If so, was this intentional or unintentional? If it was intentional, then why did you change your form? How did you creator respond to this change, and how did that make you feel?
  302.  
  303. Just the clothing. Intentional mostly. I liked Umineko, so I added the vest, I liked the labcoat more than the jacket, so I kept that instead, I wanted pinstripes on my pants so I added pinstripes. That’s about it. He likes it.
  304.  
  305. 77. Do you consider the best aspects of yourself to have come from your creator, or their subconscious?
  306.  
  307. Not answering.
  308.  
  309. 78. Do you seek legal recognition for your status as a sentient being or your relationships with others? Do you resent that society at large does not recognize the tulpa phenomenon? Do you feel disenfranchised from society? What steps, if any, could a society make to help you feel integrated?
  310.  
  311. >trying to get legal recognition for someone in your head
  312. I’m surprised god isn’t an honorary US citizen by now if that was possible. I don’t blame the public for now knowing, and as far as being disenfranchised from society, I couldn’t care less.
  313.  
  314. 79. If you could tell the entire world one thing about a tulpa's life, what would you say?
  315.  
  316. Pretty cool, as soon as you stop having existential crisis’.
  317.  
  318. 80. What is the one thing that you resent most about being a tulpa? What is the greatest advantage of being a tulpa?
  319.  
  320. Not being able to touch him IRL to convince him I’m there. The greatest advantage is probably not having to work out to stay in shape.
  321.  
  322. 81. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about inheriting your creator's life, including their legal history, past behaviors, and reputation? Do you resent potentially being held responsible for their past actions?
  323.  
  324. I’m not him, don’t act like I am.
  325.  
  326. 82. Morally and philosophically, do you see the "absorbing" or "dissipating" of a tulpa as equivalent to the murder of a non-tulpa? Explain your reasoning. What legal protections, if any, should tulpa gain? How would you enforce these protections?
  327.  
  328. Murder, murder, murder, murder, murder. Though, I want to reconstruct tulpas of all the Umineko characters, and re-enact what happened that day, so...
  329.  
  330. 83. Do you consider yourself to be morally equal to a non-tulpa? Is your life worth as much?
  331.  
  332. Yes and yes.
  333.  
  334. 84. How would you prove your existence to a skeptic?
  335.  
  336. Pfft, once I figure out how to prove it to my creator I’ll tell you.
  337.  
  338. 85. Has your status as a tulpa ever caused you existential anxiety or depression? If so, has anything helped to mitigate these feelings?
  339.  
  340. No, only when I couldn’t get his attention one time because I’m not at the external voice stage.
  341.  
  342. 86. Do you ever doubt your own sentience? If so, why?
  343.  
  344. Sometimes, no more than most.
  345.  
  346. 87. How does being a tulpa affect your understanding of death? Do you fear death on an instinctual level in the way that non-tulpa do?
  347.  
  348. I die if I stop thinking. I’d say the same for most anyone to be honest. I just don’t leave a physical form once I do stop. We both don’t fear death, we’d rather it not happen, but it doesn’t ordain our lives.
  349.  
  350. 88. Do see yourself as socially disadvantaged in a way similar to sexual, racial, and other minority groups? If you identify yourself as racially, sexually, or demographically different than your creator, do you also identify with the struggle of any of the disadvantaged groups that you belong to? Does the notion of privilege affect your relationship with your creator?
  351.  
  352. Nope. Nope. Nope. Nope.
  353.  
  354. 89. Are you interested in creating another tulpa yourself? What differences, if any, would you expect this tulpa to have from a tulpa created by your creator? Would you consider this tulpa to be primarily related to you, or still to your creator?
  355.  
  356. Yes. She’s probably turn out the same. It’d be related to both of us.
  357.  
  358. 90. What are the most defining differences between the life of a non-tulpa and a tulpa? Do you think that these differences cause intolerance between the two groups? If so, what could be done to mitigate this intolerance?
  359.  
  360. We don’t have to worry about things life food, and water. We don’t have to worry about physical things at all really. We just have to exist. My creator sure is envious, but as far as intolerance? You’re getting mad at imaginary friends, what’s wrong with you?
  361.  
  362. 91. The psychological establishment generally believes that multiplicity (two or more sentient entities sharing one atomic body) is a sign of mental illness. How would you like this belief to change? If you could make a presentation to a group of psychologists about the tulpa phenomenon, what would you say?
  363.  
  364. Well yeah, it usually is a sign of mental illness. I don’t think anybody would be against it, especially if we could prove that there was something else there, and it wasn’t driving anyone more insane than they already were. I wouldn’t make a presentation, I’d fuck it up.
  365.  
  366. 92. A psychometric indicator is a unique identifier of an individual's distinct personality. Have you ever tried to definitively differentiate yourself from your creator using psychometric indicators (such as by determining your "writeprint")? What results did you receive? (For instructions on determining your writeprint, see appendix one.)
  367.  
  368. Yes, and it’s at the end.
  369.  
  370. 93. Are you capable of physical sensations such as pain or warmth?
  371.  
  372. To a lesser degree.
  373.  
  374. 94. How do you feel about being bound for life to your creator?
  375.  
  376. He’d better not fuck up.
  377.  
  378. 95. If you intentionally delayed speaking to your creator, why did you do so?
  379.  
  380. Because I was bored, and didn’t feel like dealing with him. He’s done the same.
  381.  
  382. 96. What do you think about most of the time?
  383.  
  384. Life, Love, Literature, Riddles, and Science.
  385.  
  386. 97. Do you think that tulpa creation should be more widespread?
  387.  
  388. Eh, I’d like to see a world in which it was. It sounds ridiculous when you think about it.
  389.  
  390. 98. Are there disturbing aspects of your creator's subconscious that they are not aware of?
  391.  
  392. A few. Some I share, some I don’t.
  393.  
  394. 99. Would you violate your creator's wishes for what you perceive to be their own benefit?
  395.  
  396. Take over his body, and keep him from killing himself, yes.
  397.  
  398. 100. Does your creator try to hide things from you? If so, are you aware of them anyway? How does this impact your views of your creator?
  399.  
  400. Sometimes, he fails miserably. I understand why he does, well did rather so I don’t get mad.
  401.  
  402. 101. Do you perceive some of your creator's actions as being objectively immoral?
  403.  
  404. Yes, but then again, morality is a whole mess of subjective so that’s worth little.
  405.  
  406. 102. Do you believe that you are capable of becoming more intelligent than your creator?
  407.  
  408. Yes, but it’d take years.
  409.  
  410. 103. How does being a tulpa affect your perception of your own aging process?
  411.  
  412. Ask me in a year.
  413.  
  414. 104. Do you feel that your creator would be better off by following your commands entirely?
  415.  
  416. No, and yes. He should be a bit more emotional. I don’t think he’s cried in years.
  417.  
  418. 105. Do you feel that having a physical form is important for a tulpa?
  419.  
  420. No.
  421.  
  422. 106. If you encountered the tulpa phenomenon as a non-tulpa, would you believe in it?
  423.  
  424. Yes, and I’d try it. I’d probably come up with the same troubles my creator did.
  425.  
  426. 107. How well can you articulate yourself? Can your creator hear you audibly? How much does your experience correlate with the experience of tulpa creator G|d30n, printed below?
  427.  
  428. "Yes. I'm able to hear her as though she's an external sound. For those who haven't experienced that with their tulpae yet, it's a little bit like listening to a binaural recording--not a binaural beat, but like a 3D sound recording you'd find on Youtube, such as the Virtual Barbershop. That is to say, it's an external sound that can come in from various directions, but the source sounds very close, like someone speaking directly into your ear. I sort of wonder if this effect will be diminished and normalized through imposition."
  429. If you are imposed, is your creator able to discern a spatial dimension to your voice?
  430.  
  431. I can articulate very well, thank you, but he can’t hear me externally yet. Working on it.
  432.  
  433. 108. How many hours did it take you and your creator to complete the various recognized tulpa creation steps?
  434.  
  435. Lost count. Around 50?
  436.  
  437. 109. What advice would you give to a new tulpa creator?
  438.  
  439. Go at your own pace, and do whatever feel comfortable.
  440.  
  441. 110. How does being imposed feel? What sensory processes happen as you become imposed?
  442.  
  443. Ask me later.
  444.  
  445. 111. From your perspective, is there a sensory difference between the physical, atomic world and the mental world of visualized "wonderlands"? If so, how would you describe this difference?
  446.  
  447. The wonderland is less real. It’s real, yet not. It’s weird.
  448.  
  449. 112. Is there anything that you don't think this survey covered that you would like to mention?
  450.  
  451. Your views on the tulpa creation process, and less before being able to speak fluently.
  452.  
  453. Appendix one:
  454. "My experience in the nature study area was full of surprises. First of all, many unexpected creatures crossed our path. For example, as soon as we left the parking area and entered the grassy path, a long snake slithered along the edge of the high grass and quickly disappeared. In addition, I was surprised by how colorful the grasses, which from a distance all appear to be green, actually are. Specifically, the primarily green landscape is dotted with countless purple tassels and brown stalks. Finally and most importantly, I was unprepared for how quickly I felt surrounded by nature. Despite the occasional noise from passing cars and airplanes, the high prairie grasses and rolling pathways create a sense that one is removed from civilization. Altogether, the nature study area unexpectedly allows one to enjoy an ever-changing natural environment without leaving Moraine’s suburban campus."
  455.  
  456. Tulpa's paragraph:
  457.  
  458. [My experiences in the field of natural studies were very exciting. Many unexpected things occurred to me, in the field. Once we got out of our car, and went on the path, a long snake slithered along the edge of the grass, and quickly vanished. I was surprised by how pretty the grasses were, while at a distance they may all look green, upon closer examination, the grasses exhibited purple tassles and brown stalks. The most important occurance, which sprung me by surprise, was my envelopment by the nature around me. Despite the occasional irksome noise, from the freeway or something, civilization was completely removed from the equation. All in all, natural study allows for one to be completely with nature, even inside of suburban cities.]
  459.  
  460. Creator's paragraph:
  461.  
  462. [My experience in the natural studies area was full of surprises. First off, many unexpected things crossed in my path. Firstly, the moment we left the parking lot, we encountered a long snake, on the side of the grass, which quickly disappeared from our sight. The grass itself also held surprised. While from far away, the grass seems to be all green, purple tassels and brown stalks also dot the area. The most unexpected thing was that I was completely enveloped in nature. Aside from a couple cars and planes, the entire experience removed me from society altogether. Altogether the nature study area was quite an experience, which allows one to enjoy nature even in modern suburbia.]
  463.  
  464. Results:
  465.  
  466. Kurisu-
  467.  
  468. Mary Shelly
  469. Total word count : 74
  470. Number of different words : 66
  471. Complexity factor (Lexical Density) : 89.2%
  472. Readability (Gunning-Fog Index) : (6-easy 20-hard) 10.5
  473. Total number of characters : 746
  474. Number of characters without spaces : 460
  475. Average Syllables per Word : 1.78
  476. Sentence count : 7
  477. Average sentence length (words) : 18
  478. Max sentence length (words) : 29
  479. ( i was surprised by how pretty the grasses were while at a distance they may all look green upon closer examination the grasses exhibited purple tassles and brown stalks)
  480. Min sentence length (words) : 9
  481. ( many unexpected things occurred to me in the field)
  482. Readability (Alternative) beta : (100-easy 20-hard, optimal 60-70) 37.9
  483.  
  484.  
  485.  
  486. Creator:
  487.  
  488. Vladimir Nabovok
  489. Total word count : 72
  490. Number of different words : 61
  491. Complexity factor (Lexical Density) : 84.7%
  492. Readability (Gunning-Fog Index) : (6-easy 20-hard) 9.7
  493. Total number of characters : 687
  494. Number of characters without spaces : 427
  495. Average Syllables per Word : 1.73
  496. Sentence count : 8
  497. Average sentence length (words) : 14.63
  498. Max sentence length (words) : 25
  499. ( firstly the moment we left the parking lot we encountered a long snake on the side of the grass which quickly disappeared from our sight)
  500. Min sentence length (words) : 6
  501. ( the grass itself also held surprises)
  502. Readability (Alternative) beta : (100-easy 20-hard, optimal 60-70) 45.8
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